First One

Ok. Here I go. As is the case with most things in my life, I am diving in. I am not sure if I am doing it right or if I have done enough research but I am confident I have overthought this decision to blog. I thought keeping a blog would be the perfect way to mark the journey to my 40th birthday. I am having a tough time with 40 so I won't dwell on that. I'll be 39 on Sunday and am the oldest of my siblings and close cousins. My husband is a year younger so it feels like a maiden voyage. Since this in only my first post, I'm going to keep it simple.

 Getting old sucks. Maybe not the getting old but feeling old.  Even though I have been very blessed, I feel that I have spent the last 11 years taking care of kids and others. Now I realize that is not a bad thing to have been doing  but somewhere along the line I lost myself. As I approach 40, I am going to try to rediscover myself and do some things that I have wanted to do. The end goal? A huge 40th birthday party that I want my husband to plan but am actually going to plan myself. I want it done right, right?

I hope to write often as I attempt to document the next 12 months. I hope to do something exciting each month as I approach my 40th. Not everything has been worked out yet but it will be an adventure either way. Getting to this point is a huge step for me. Gold star for today.